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It is official: I am now on birth control. I got the pills on Thursday from the pharamacy and took my first one last night at about 10:40. Why 10:40? Because I wouldn't be able to take it in the morning/afternoon due to my work schedule switching around on the the weekends. I get off at 10, drive around a little bit to clear my head before going home so by that time I'm in the house by 10:30 or 10:40 depending on how long I drove.
It only cost my about $6.60 for 28 day supply. Awesome.
It was nice last night to just sit on the couch with my parents and watch a film. I rented Haunted Honeymoon with Gene Wilder from Blockbuster last night and really wanted my mom to see it. My dad just decided to join us, so it was just really nice to have that little time with parents since most of the time when they're together they talk about money/work/more money/etc. Now, they just got to laugh and have a good time, even if it was for only an hour and a half.
*pokes people* By the way, yesterday I also got all the pictures I had taken of World's of Fun and Beth's Birthday and made copies of practically all of them, so hopefully you guys will soon be getting copies of the group photo we had taken. HORRAY! (I need to stop watching Bum Reviews)
I need to take a shower, so I'll leave you guys with this pleasant bit of news below.
http://www.miamiherald.com/486/story/109
Oh! And Karen is doing well in Colorado by the way if you were wondering!!!
- Mood:
random
Those were the three things I told Karen before she left for Lawerence yesterday and today, she's on her way to Colorado. She needs to be there by Wed. at 2 o'clock to get everything in order.
Oh Lordy, am I going to be lonely while she's gone. 8 weeks! I know that doesn't seem like much compared to the fact that Beth was so far away for so long from Mel, but at least you guys were able to call each other just about every day! Knowing Karen, she'll probably only call me once every week or so. *weep* I'm going to need a lot of cuddles in these next few weeks.
Oh! By the way, by the time Karen gets back, I'll be on birth control! Thomas and I felt we waited way too long for me to get on it, so this Thursday we're heading down to Planned Parenthood to get me a prescription. I'm hoping for something that I'll only have to take once a week. We'll see. And just to let you guys know, once I'm on it, there is still no way I'm letting Dog-Boy go without a condom. There is NO freaking way I'm letting him go without a condom, even after my body gets used to the birth control. *pokes belly*
I don't think any of you are very keen on having a pregnant Squeak walking around with sudden, random cravings for things like giant pickles or, God forbidden, chop suey and a watermelon! Did ANYONE get that Disney reference? I doubt it.
Speaking, though, of birth control, I should probably go look at some more of that stuff to see what kind would be best for me.
Anyone want to try and get together, by the way, tomorrow afternoon at about 6 or 6:30? My dad would be working late, so I wouldn't be able to do anything until that time when he gets home. Don't know what we'd do, but I'd like to do something and get out of my house!
- Mood:
thoughtful - Music:"Fighting for Nothing" by Meg & Dia
My mom and I are taking Bridget to get her shot so her period doesn't come (you want to deal with the mess? We don't!) and that's ALWAYS fun. Grr. When B gets tired, she tells us by bending over and not moving. It's the hardest thing with that girl to move her if she doesn't want to and KU Medical's parking is an f-ing bitch. Hopefully we can find a handicapped parking spot as soon as we drive in so it won't be that long of a walk for her. It's good exercise for her, but a pain for us. Also since this is a new doctor, they'll want to examine her, try and understand why she's underweight, etc. We have no idea how long this is going to take. I just want to be in and out of there as quickly as possible for B's sake (she hates getting pricked with that needle), but if the doctor wants to see her...*sigh* they'll see her.
Can't wait until she goes to camp. Not to be mean or anything, it's just nice for her to get out and have some exercise, go to the pool (which she adores) and be around other people. It also gives us a break, which may sound awful, but if you had a sister like her, you'd be thankful too to get two weeks off from her!
Oh! And I had a minor accident at work yesterday! See, Monday's are when we get totes from the truck that have all the items we need for the store. Well, me being the klutz that I am, I was heading towards the counter to check-out a customer and I tripped over the edge of one of the totes. Smart I know. Anyway, I limped to the counter and after helping them, took a look at my left leg. Right in the middle of the scar from my third grade accident, right in the dent, was a big red mark. That mark, today, has turned in a bruise that hurts like no other bruise I've ever had in my life. It doesn't hurt so much to walk anymore, but I can't apply much pressure to it without hurting.
I've got some bruise relief ointment on it right now and it seems to be helping, so I can only hope that when I go to World's of Fun on Saturday I'll at least be able to walk without limping!!
- Mood:
tired - Music:Cinderella is playing in Bridget's room
Last week was really sucky, but this week has been fine. Really and truly. I had the best time today with Wolf and not ONCE did I think about anything that has been bothering me recently.
We went to the zoo. I felt like such a child doing that, being so excited to go to the zoo, but it was so totally worth it...except all of the elementary school children that just HAD to be there today on a field trip. Naturally. I took lots of pictures with my little disposible camera (I feel like such a noob for using it, but oh well!), and so on Saturday when I go into work, I can develop them myself with gives me a feeling of total SUCCESS.
Ah, and I'm tired from all the walking I did today. It was totally worth it, but man, I'm beat. I've still got to clean up my room before my dad gets home and make dinner tonight...so I might as well get off now. If I don't clean my room, my dad won't let me out of the house and I NEED to get out or else I'll go insane.
Love you guys!!!!
- Mood: tired
We got back about an hour ago from getting Bridget's physical done so that she can go to camp in July (two weeks of a Bridget-free household!), and we found out something amazing and very terrifying.
Bridget weighs 86 pounds. She has been steadly dropping weight for the past four years from 102 to 86. She's 23 years old.
Anybody else think that this is...oh, I don't know...DANGEROUS? I mean, seriously! My mom and I are blaming the gluten-free diet we've had her on for the past two years or so...but we had no idea it was this bad! Lord...now I know which diet to turn to when I'm in dire need of losing weight!
Really and truly, it's so difficult to find foods that are gluten-free for her to have. Going on a trip just makes things interesting. And when we ARE feeding her, it's such a small amout of food (so she won't get constapated) that it leaves her still feeling hungry. I have the habit of, when I'm feeding her dinner when my dad works overtime, to give her the larger piece of the chicken since I know that she can't simply get up and feed herself if she's hungry. My parents, however, don't. They give her the smaller piece purely because they're afraid of what I just mentioned above in the ().
Hopefully THIS will convince my dad that she needs to eat more. I just went to google to search for some gluten-free fast food...and it turns out that I can get her some Chik-Fil-A stuff, which not only would be a nice treat for her, but also help her to gain some weight!
This is going to be interesting for the next couple months.
I think if I DO get any vaction time from work I'm going to ask for one of those weeks off while she's gone. It'll be a nice break to just be able to sit back and relax. I think I could live with not have one paycheck that month.
- Mood:
productive - Music:"Monster" by Meg and Dia
I have bought my first mp3 player! I'm getting tired of having to lug around my cd player whenever I want to listen to music that isn't on the radio so I gave in. :P Since I'm not as computer literate as some people (you know who you are!!!) I can't put a nice blue link in a word for you to click on...so here's the HUGE link!!!!!
www.amazon.com/SanDisk-Sansa-Video-Playe
If you're lazy and decide not to click on it (or if you just don't want to click it...either way...) here's a run-down of what it is:
SanDisk Sansa Fuze 8gb Video mp3 Player
Size of a Credit Card, Width of a Pencil, yet still has a weight to it
Works with Windows Media (Thank God because as you all know, my dad DELETED Itunes)
Has an FM Radio (not needed, but an added bonus)
Video Player is about 1.9 in. so it's not very big, but if I wanted videos, I could have them right there!
I can delete songs right there on the player rather than have to connect it to delete anything
IT'S SILVER (I wanted to be special)
Squeak is a happy Squeak. Also, I got it for UNDER $100. Total Glee. The email Amazon sent me says it should be here this Saturday, but of course, I'm hoping for earlier.
And happiness insues.
I have other stuff to talk about...but it's just so overly angsty that I don't want to have to think about that right now. I have this good news...and that's all I want right now.
- Mood:
Trying to relax - Music:"Thankless Job" from Repo!
Everyone else is doing it...so let's follow the crowd!
A to ZZZZZ
A-Z according to kizi!
Alright, if i tagged you...you have been infected.
I not only want to share these things with all of my closest friends, but I wanna know them about you too. What if it is your birthday and I don't know what to get you? Or you are sad and I don't know your favorite movie and ice cream flavor? These things are important holms!
A
- Available: As in...romantically? No. As in to do something? Currently yes, but later tonight no.
- Age: 19 (Yay for B-Day yesterday!!)
- Annoyance: People with food on their faces and they don't realize it and people on cellphones when they're paying for stuff. It's people like that that shorten my life span.
- Animal: Larks and Basset Hounds
B
- Beer: Ewww...I perfer wine.
- Birthday: March 1st
- Blind or Deaf: Blind. I think I could probably live without my sight, though it would suck.
- Best weather: Sunny with a soft wind, weather nice enough that I can wear a short-sleeve shirt.
- Been in Love: IS in love. :D
- Believe in Magic: Show me some real magic and I will truly believe
- Believe in Santa: I don't believe in the big red jolly guy, but in the original one; the one who'd throw pouches of gold into the houses of the poor. That's the REAL Santa.
C
- Candy: Pocky
- Color: Blue, purple and green are my main ones.
- Chocolate/Vanilla: Chocolate, preferrably white.
- Chinese/Mexican Food: Chinese.
- Cake or pie: If it's homemade, cake. Pie if it's Tippins.
- Continent to visit: Sweden, Estonia and Japan
- Cheese: Where??! *is startled by the flash from the camera*
D
- Day or Night: Twilight, the ending of day and barely the beginning of night
- Dancing in the rain: Only if others are with me
E
- Eyes: Sky blue, sometimes looks silver surprisingly enough
- Ever failed a class: Yep
F
- First thoughts waking up: Does B need her movie changed?
- Food: Just ate left over Jack Stack BBQ Burnt Ends and a rib.
G
- Greatest Fear: Losing the people I love and never seeing them again.
- Goals: To try and get my weight down to AT LEAST 140 or so. Maybe 135 if I can.
- Gum: 5 gum, spearmint. Or Ice Cubes.
- Get along with your parents: Yep, most of the time with my dad.
H
- Hair Color: Golden blonde.
- Height: 5'4'’
- Happy: *grins*
- Holiday: Christmas
- How do you want to die: In my sleep.
I
- Ice Cream: Tin Roof Sundae (I think that's spelled right...)
- Instrument: My voice and the piano, which I used to be able to play really well...but no more!
J
- Jewelry: A necklace, two rings and a bracelet.
- Job: Retail store
K
- Kids: Two or three, but not anytime soon plz!
- Kickboxing or karate: I'd die in the first five minutes
- Keep a journal: This thing
L
- Love: The most wonderful and most painful thing I have in my life right now.
- Laughed so hard you cried: Yes, can't remember what at...but yes.
M
- Milk flavor: Any of them. I'll drink them all.
- Movies: Pan's Labyrinth because it's awesome and amazing.
- Motion sickness: My other sister gets it occasionally, but I don't.
- McD’s or BK: McD's. I think I've only eaten at BK, like, twice in my entire life.
N
- Number: Any of them. I don't have a specific one.
O
- One wish: I have a lot...how much time do you have?
P
- Pepsi/Coke: Truthfully, neither. Coke only if it's, like, Vanilla Coke or the one they don't sell anymore, Black Cherry Vanilla Coke. Pepsi only if I'm with the person who always drinks it.
- Perfect Pizza: A large cheese pizza that I can share with someone.
- Piercings: None. I have a bubble in one of my earlobs and I don't want to have just one piercing.
Q
- Quail: BIRDIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
R
- Reality T.V.: No...just no.
- Radio Station: Alternative rock and classical
- Roll your tongue in a circle: Yep
- Ring size: 8
S
- Song: Too many
- Shoe size: 8.5 wide or 9
- Salad Dressing: Caesar
- Sushi: Not very often but sure.
- Shower: Love 'em.
- Strawberries/Blueberries: Strawberry plz.
T
- Tattoos: Nah, don't need them.
- Time for bed: 11:30 normally
- Thunderstorms: They're fine if they're not that close, but when I hear that huge BANG, I'm terrified.
U
- Unpredictable: On occasion. ICE CREAM IN WINTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
V
- Vacation spot(s): I'd like to go back to Kentucky and sit and read on my uncles' back porch in the sun. So lovely.
W
- Weakness: God...that's a lot. Of course, him. Animals. Chocolate. I can spend my money a little too easily sometimes.
- Which one of your friends acts the most like you: Guys? Any ideas?
- Worst feeling: Not understanding why I'm crying and being alone/can't get in contact with anyone.
- Worst Weather: So cold that if you step outside for one second, you feel like you're limbs are falling off.
X
- X-Rays: In my mouth and on my leg. I think I had one on my wrist once to make sure it wasn't broken, just sprang.
Y
-Year it is now: 2009
-Y? Because I said so, damn it!
Z
- Zoo animal: Seals
Speaking of animals, by the way, I donated to www.petsofhomeless.com/ a few days back ($5 through Pay Pal) and that night, I opened up a fortune cookie I hadn't eaten from the Red Snapper. It read, "An act of charity will go a long way." It made my day/night. ^_^
Read American Psycho if you ever want to feel really horribly about the way some people treat the homeless. It's just sickening how the main character (and others) treat the homeless and even what he DOES to them. It's an excellent book (very gruesome at points) but it really opens your eyes to the homeless. It even has the habit of making me at least feel guilty for not doing something to help them.
For birthdays, Jack Stack gives you dessert on the house but we were all so full that Dog-Boy (who's b-day is today and he is now officially 21!) and I just took it back to his house and have it stored in his freezer to eat tonight when I'm over there for his b-day dinner. My parents treated him as his b-day gift from them and he and my dad ACTUALLY got along! It was amazing.
- Mood:
loved - Music:River Flows in You by Yiruma
To try and make this very quick, when I got home from my 10 hour shift yesterday (12 to 10!!! What fun!!!) my dad told me my older sister had called asking if I had heard about the rally over the high school. I told him I first heard about it when one of the guys from Graphic Novel came in wearing a shirt that had that colored duck tape on it with things like "Acceptance" and "God is Love" written on them.
When I said "God is Love," my father (the bible driven guy that he is) says, "But God isn't SEX. That's what they're talking about."
...
WHAT THE FUCK?! DO YOU EVEN KNOW ANY GAY PEOPLE?! ARE YOU EVEN FRIENDS WITH ANY?! Do you truly believe that everything in the Bible is Law? For fuck sake, the Bible is simply a good that condradicts itself over and over again. That is way I've been putting it off for so long. If he knew any gay people, I'm sure he wouldn't be saying that, but you know what I think personally? I think he's AFRAID of them. I think he's too goddamn proud to admit that he is afraid of them.
Holy mother fuck. It's not about sex for them, it's about love. Just as he likes women, they like other men.
IF YOU DON'T HAVE ANYTHING NICE TO SAY, DON'T SAY ANYTHING AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
By the way, do you know how terrifying it is to turn around to look at your handicapped sister and realize you didn't even HEAR her fall out of her chair? That you just brushed the sound off as a creak in the house? How long was she laying there?
It's stuff like that that keeps me up at night. What would I do if my handicapped sister had something happen to her and nobody was there to help her? What if she died during the night? Rett girls don't live for very long. She's lucky. We take good care of her. Unlike some girls with this, by the age of 19 or 20, they can't walk. She can! She's 22 years old and even though she can't walk without help, she can STILL move her legs.
Rett is genetic. We just sent over some her blood to a test lab down in Texas for them to check to make sure she had the marker for Rett, then Hillary and I are going to send out blood down where to see if we're carriers.
I don't think I could handle giving birth to a baby like my sister. I don't want to see my own child have what she has and never get the chance to hear her say, "I love you."
I'll never hear Bridget say that...
- Mood:
cranky - Music:Run - Snow Patrol
It's a good thing I get such a big check each week because just yesterday, I successfully spent over $100. Thankfully not all in the same place, but...wow. I normally don't do that when it's not the Christmas season.
Damn my boobs. They better be happy though. I just bought them a $30 bra so now, instead of having only 2 that fit me, I'll now have 3! Big difference, I know, but I've been wearing one two days in a row, then the other two days. It'll be nice to not have to continue doing that. I DID look at the JC Penny Outlet mall to see if they would have any my size and we did find two, but neither had underwire, so they were very uncomfortable. Out of that whole place, TWO freakin' bras that were the right cup size.
*glares at boobs* They can stay there as long as they don't give me cancer.
Macy's is expensive, but I did find that bra and a new shirt, so that's nice. Mel, you have rubbed of me. The shirt is striped. *can hear Mel's laugh now*
Bought some shoes for the spring/summer. They have little vents in them to help keep them cool, so that'll be nice to have and they don't look too bad either. Normally $28, but on sale for $14. Not too bad. And bought another new shirt at Old Navy which I didn't have to spend any money because some people my mom works for gave her a $15 giftcard which she just passed along to me. And I still have $10 left on it! And shirt is so cute!!!! There's a little owl in the top left corner and...ahh! *Squeals*
And yet, you still wonder, "Was that shirt at Macy's THAT expensive?! How much was it that you still managed to spend over $100 in one day?!" Well, I didn't mention that I also bought Wolf two things as well at Macy's, now did I? Yep...then I bought some food at Hen House and well...there you go!
I talked to some Jehovah's witnesses that came this morning. They gave me a book to look at and she said she'd be back next week. ("We'll be back to collect your soul next week. Be prepared!") It's probably just me, but I found it rather creepy that she was able to find some way to relate goverment to a prayer in the Bible. For one, I NEVER bring politics into the church. The two just DO NOT belong together. And two, you guys know my opinion on politics. When she asked me what I thought about the new goverment, I just answered, very truthfully, "I'm just glad people like him so much." To tell that truth, if people like him, fine by me. Obama has yet to impress me, but now he'll have four years to do it.
Good luck with that! *thumbs up*
- Mood:
okay - Music:"The Heart Asks The Pleasure First" by Michael Nyman
Thanks Dad. Love you too.
Mel, I found this out when I went to go download the three songs you sent me, so I can still listen to them...but STILL!!! It limits me so much on this thing! And I really wanted to listen to Emilie Autumn this morning...and when I use youtube in a seperate tab, the other websites I go to cause it to momentarily stop as that website loads.
Mugglenet hates Youtube. *random muggles pull out wands and wave them around at all the youtubers who in turn charge them with He-man in the lead*
If you're questioning my sanity right now I have two questions for you. 1) Haven't you noticed I've always been like this? and 2) I just woke up, like, half an hour ago, okay?! No thanks to a ringing phone too. :P Also work was just...interesting last night. We're supoosed to get our truck delieveries Monday morning, normally...but then again, this is my life! Naturally, things go nuts so instead of it coming this morning...it arrives while only three people are there that night.
And chaos ensued. And for a freakin' Sunday night, when the pharmacy has closed and everything, it's normally not that busy. Of course, it's busy when I'm the only one working the front of the store and the other two are in the garage getting everything out of the truck. GREAT!!! Really made my night!!!!!
This is why I need a pet. Something that will relieve some of my stress.
WHERE ARE YOU DOG-BOY?!
- Music:"Still Alive" by Lisa Miskovsky
It still speaks to me on so many levels.
Anyway, I haven't updated since the end of Nov. so I thought why not? Everyone probably thinks I'm dead.
Let's see...X-mas shopping went well. As everyone now knows, Mel got her new cat who is one of the sweetest cats I've ever met. I mean, she was literally just lying in her cage, watching us, in this way that screamed, "You know you want me! Admit it, you want me!"
I think I'll steal her. *ninja appears out of nowhere*
The problem with that day, however, was the fact that I was catching a bad cold. The day before at work I was sneezing so much more than I was used to. If I had known how bad I would have felt the next day, I would have either canceled or not gone shopping with everyone, but I had been planning it for an entire freaking month. I wasn't feeling that bad when we picked Mel and Wolf up, but after we ate lunch a few hours later, I felt so shitty. The slightest smell made me sneeze, even the smell of cigarettes, which normally doesn't bother me, set it off.
Because I was a complete fool, I didn't have my heavy coat with me Sunday...so I wore either Dog-Boys' trench coat or his leather jacket whenever we were outside. Last thing any of us needed was an ever sicker Squeak.
Needless to say, I took Monday off from work.
And hardback books are WAY too expensive. My sister is asking for the entire Twilight collection as a present this year, so we went to Borders. I was only able to buy the first two books in the series. $40 for two books. Of course, now that I look at my hardbacks of Harry Potter, that's cheap. The sixth was said $29.99 at the corner of the inside flap in the front and the seventh said $39.99.
Damn!
That does remind me, though, that I need to transfer some money from B's account to my own. Each of the books in the series will be from someone in the family. First one from me, second from B, so on.
My Itunes has REALLY moved away from the original idea of innocence and "home is where the heart is." Haha...wow.
"So let the record show that you murdered me in the coldest blood with your own two hands." O_o Definitely not what I had in the beginning.
Did I also mention that I'm working Sunday until midnight? Yeah. I am. And I work X-mas eve. This should be fun.
At least I get Christmas off!
- Mood:
Still Alive - Music:"I Don't Want To Live On the Moon" sung by Ernie of Sesame Street
I gave in.
I went and saw Twilight with Wolf yesterday night. We only paid $4 to see it, so it wasn't THAT bad.
Wow. I just couldn't wait to make fun of it. 90% of the time I was giggling like a manic. A lot of it had to do with the fact that Edward was more of a pixie in the sunlight when a vampire (but I've thought that ever since I read the book). It really looked like it was sprayed onto him. Oh man that was a riot. Also the first kissing scene I have now labeled "The Nose War" because that's all it seems to be: Edward trying NOT to kiss Bella, but keeping his nose right next to her own.
"Hang on Spider-monkey." To Wolf: "Spider man, spider man...does whatever a spider man does."
Wolf: "What would happen if Bella fell out of the tree?"
Me: "Edward would save her."
Wolf: "You think so?"
Me: "Well, yeah! He IS a VAMPIRE afterall!"
Wolf: "Oh, you mean he's NOT a pixie? I'm so disappointed."
It was stuff like that that we did through-out the entire film. I will admit that there were some really good parts to the film such as the baseball scene and the ballet scene. I also kind of like the vampire montage where she's doing research and coming to the final conclusion. I'm disappointed that they left out Carlisle and Alice's history, but *shrug* oh well.
When the movie actually comes out onto DVD and all parts of the film go onto youtube, you'll probably see me favoriting the baseball scene. I also love the music they chose for that scene.
Can you imagine how happy I was to see the Harry Potter trailer on the big screen? :D There was no glare like there would be on the computer screen and I could actually see EVERYTHING. DAMN YOU TWILIGHT FOR COMING OUT THE DAY HP WAS SUPPOSED TO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMN YOU TO HELL AND BACK AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*deep breath*
Anyway, though, I got lost for the first time last night as well (if you don't count the wrong turn I made on my way to Mel's...but I was tired and just got off from work, okay?!) We tried to find Borders on Metcaff...and many wrong turns ended up nowhere. For an entire hour, we were lost. To say the least, it was...interesting. Finally, on our way back to drop Wolf off at her house, we came to the right street.
Well shit.
Another time...when we're not both exhausted. Plus side of that night, however, was laughing at a very awkward, riot-filled film and eating over at Chili's afterwards.
Anyway...that's my two-cents for the film. I'm glad I only paid four bucks for it and no more. It wasn't worth more than that in the least bit.
- Mood:
Glad I'm not still there - Music:"Decode" by Paramore
Poor guy is probably horribly tired of his holiday starting two months before the actual month of December.
Let's see...tomorrow I get to go to the polls and vote for *jumbled noise*. We'll see how that turns out.
And that ends my talk on poltics!!! Yay!!!
*stares at Twilight novel* I finished it about two weeks ago tomorrow and this is what I have to say: I'm looking forward to the movie purely because I want to see how they can pull off making Cedric Diggory SPARKLE. Fucking sparkle. I should probably read the other three novels...but I think I'll wait on those. I feel like my brain was exploding for a few days after I finished it. I was looking at the official website for the book and movie and found that, surprise surprise, I'm looking forward to the soundtrack for the film. I want to hear Bella's Lullabye, purely because I love the piano. My brain, however, didn't understand why I was looking at the websites seeing as how the pictures kind of sickened me.
Anyone else realize that the guy who plays Edward has now officially played TWO dead people? Cedric Diggory and Edward...a sparkling vampire...who has a mood shift in every other line...and, I guess, looks like a walking, talking, blood-sucking marble statue...and likes to speed when driving. *hand face*
I did laugh sometimes when I was reading it, I will admit to that. Meyer has a good sense of humor, but her writing style needs a lot of work. Her description of the woods/forest is really good, but the characters...are just so flat feeling. I like Alice and Carisles (however you spell his name...I really could care less), and I like Jasper a little bit, but when I read about ANY of the characters, even the ones I like, they all just seem to blend into one character. I REALLY don't like that. It's a big cast of characters and I want to feel something for every character when I read. If not, then it's completely pointless.
I'll be giving the book back to you soon, Mel. I can't promise on what day, but I will be giving it back to you at some future point.
Thank God I saw the bf yesterday. I think I really needed to feel loved...see someone who I knew would make me feel like going through this week was worth it. And it was.
Who knew just laying on a couch, just cuddling and talking, could be so rewarding? :D I forgot how much I love doing that with him.
I need Christmas gift ideas from people.
- Mood: loved
- Music:"Marry Me" by Emilie Autumn
Thrilled a friend has a job (I've been hoping she'd get one soon purely because I think everyone should have that kind of experience and...hell, we need money for everything these days!), but not so thrilled about the fact that it's one more week until Halloween Haunt and I don't know if she can still come with us. Last year we went, she wasn't able to because of family stuff that came up.
This year, I want her to go purely because I think she needs to get out of her house, hang out with a friend she hasn't seen since...God, I think it was July the last time she saw Wolf and when was the last time she went to World's of Fun? I want her to go enjoy herself, let loose a bit! Now I don't know if she's got the day off to be able to...
It's my own fault for going out last night with the bf, knowing I'd have to go into work at 8 in the morning, but since I was the only cashier up until the time I left, I never got my 15 minute brake. I think that really took a toll, not helped by the fact that I only got about five hours of sleep for the past three nights.
Seriously, though, who the hell gets pissed off when they have to pay an extra 10 cents for something that was already on fucking sale? It was supposed to be 90% off, but the register brought it up as 80% off and he gets all grouchy about how he doesn't want to pay for it because of that and how "I needed it!" Well then, buddy, why don't you quit your fucking complaints and pay up instead of having me call up my manager who is probably mad at me as well for always calling him up when I have a problem?!
And here he is, telling me that we should just take the rest of the stuff off the shelf if it isn't going to ring up properly and how it was all MY fault for it not ringing up 90% off. Oh, really? MY FAULT? Go fuck yourself, you god damn prick! I have a line of customers who are waiting to be rung up and you're complaining about 10 mother fucking cents?! Are you really such a penny-pincher that you're upset about ten cents, a dime that I'm sure you had in your wallet or even in your bank account?!
All the customers after him we're telling me not to let it get me down. It helped a bit, but it ruined the rest of my day...at it was only about 9:45!
I feel unloved.
- Mood:
rejected - Music:"The Howling" by Within Temptation
Working for nearly 4 1/2 hours on only about 4 hours of sleep is a no-no.
DO NOT DO IT!!!!!
Yesterday, I was such a rush to get the Halloween stuff onto the shelves, put the candy up AND do the register that I had to stay 30 minutes late to finish it all up. Put the limited amount of sleep on top of that and you've got a Squeak who can't believe that she actually drove and made it home alive.
Yes, I have now officially gotten my license. It's even more official now that I've actually received the laminated piece of paper with an expiration date on it! O__O I haven't killed anyone yet, by the way.
God, I was on a forum on Gaiaonline and found that almost half of the threads in the General Discussion were either about sex/masterbation or how one gender is better than the other. It was a bit of a riot to read some of the posts, but at the same time...kind of sad to see that this is what we're thinking about a majority of the time.
P.S. Karen's B-day is on Wed. I'm sure she'd love some calls from everyone!
Keep on trying till we run out of cake...
- Mood: hyper
- Music:STILL ALIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh, and guess what? Dog-Boy lost his job yesterday. Can you imagine how I cried when I heard that? God damn...I'm just pissed at that! I find a job and he loses his...*inner rant* Anyway...onto this because it sounds like fun and I've never done one of these before!!!
1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
"Endless Sorrow" by Ayumi Hamasaki
(What the hell? That's not very cheery at all!!! D:)
2. How would you describe yourself?
"Still Alone" by Ayumi Hamasaki
(Uh, no! I'm not alone! I used to be, but for the past two years I have not been alone!!!)
3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
"Cloudburst" by Eric Whitacre
(In a way, it does work. I suppose you could look at in a symbolic way..."Eyes of shadow-water, eyes of well-water, eyes of dream-water"...it's in Spanish so I'm using the translation in the booklet)
4. How do you feel today?
"Better than me" by Hinder
(Somedays I feel like that, but not today. He told me last night that if I was still with him, he'd be just fine. I'm feeling very loved today...not like he deserves better...)
5. What is your life's purpose?
"I Want Nothing" by Kerli
(In a way...I only ask that I be seen as equal to everyone and loved...it works...sort of...)
6. What is your motto?
"Amerika" by Rammstein
(Yeah. That seems to work pretty well. Not exactly my motto, but America is just one big super company)
7. What do your friends think of you?
"Anything for you" by Evanescence
(It's meant for a lover, but in the terms of friends...yeah. I'd probably do anything for my friends, just so long as it's nothing that'll end up getting me killed! No suicide missions for me plzkthx!!!!)
8. What do you think of your parents?
"With a Lily in Your Hand" by Eric Whitacre
("With a Lily in your hand I leave you..." Please no!!!!)
9. What do you think about very often?
"Mad World" by Gary Jules
(Only when it comes to my past...I see it more as a song for memories for me...but I don't think I think about it all that often anymore!)
10. What is 2 + 2?
"Hello Tomorrow" by Squeak E. Clean
(What the...)
11. What do you think of your best friend?
"Love is Dead" by Kerli
(I hope not. Our love as friends better last us for the rest of our lives. If not, we're both going to be really pissed!)
12. What do you think of the person you like?
"The Fallen" by Franz Ferdiand
(OH HELL NO!!!!!!)
13. What is your life story?
"Perfect Lie" by The Engine Room
(...no...plain and simple, no)
14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
"Nowaku no Hana (Flower of Hell)" by Shimamiya Eiko
(It doesn't help that it's in Japanese...but the title alone screams "PLZNOKTHX!!!")
15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
"This Marriage" by Eric Whitacre
(O_o Um...maybe?)
16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
"Walking on Air" by Kerli
(Uh, no. I don't think it's really meant for a wedding, nor do I really wish to dance to it!)
17. What will they play at your funeral?
"A Boy and A Girl" by Eric Whitacre
(I love the song to death and if he dies soon after me, then I feel this would be perfect for the double funeral. Other than that, I don't think it'd be a good choice!)
18. What is your hobby/interest?
"Blight" by Kow Otani
(Letting my wings grow? *Looks at back and feels for bumps*)
19. What is your biggest fear?
"I'm Still Here" by Johnny Rzeznik
(Being forgotten and not allowed to be myself. Yeah, that's pretty accurate!)
20. What is your biggest secret?
"Time Passes By" by Sung-woon Jang
(I don't forget anything that happens to me, unless I purposely force it from my memory)
21. What do you think of your friends?
"Fragile" by Kerli
(They are most certainly NOT fragile. If anything, I feel like they're stronger than me, but I'm sure they have their braking points as well when they just want to sit and cry for an hour. )
22. What will you post this as?
"Dashboard" by Modest Mouse
(Sure!!)
- Mood: discontent
- Music:"The Falling Kind" by Veda
WARNING: VERY LONG POST AHEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Alrighty then! Well, first and foremost, Thursday morning my family (sisters and mother) and I all headed out to Kentucky for what should have been a family reunion. Only problem was that my father had to go out the day before because my grandmother had become horribly sick and she was calling for all of her children to come see her. So, Hillary drove us all down to Kentucky (a 10 hr. drive!) and, surprisingly enough, Bridget behaved. She didn't shriek, she didn't try to make us all crazy...she was perfect! It was amazing.
We had left at about five minutes till 7 that morning and arrived at about five minutes till 5. We were greeted by my father who was, quite litterly, power washing the drive-way. He had the hose and everything and was spraying it down when we pulled up. No "Hello" or even a wave, just a hand signal of "Wait there! I'm almost done with this!" *sigh* I have such a welcoming family, don't I?
Anyway, saw her (she could barely form words, at least cohernt words, but she did open her eyes and gave us a sign of recognition) and everything. Visited uncles and aunts, the few cousins who were there that day...things like that. A lot of the time we took turns sitting with Grandma, talking with her...recalling memories. For me, I remember her taking out this big book of Winnie the Pooh, sitting me and Hillary (or sometimes just me) on her bed, taking out Beanie Babies that were similiar to the characters (a tiger for T-I-double Ga-Er, a bear for Pooh, etc.) and her reading a story or two to me/us. I don't remember the stories at all, just how much I enjoyed the time I spent with her, acting out each moment with those toys. I promised her I'd never read the books for myself, but only for my own children. I just don't think I'd enjoy it very much if I just read it for my own pleasure.
I slept on the sofa that night in the upstairs living room.
Those close to me know I can be a bit anti-social at points, and family reunions are no exceptions. I sat on the sofa reading, sometimes looking up at the Disney film that was playing for B, and then (this amazed even me that I did this), I sat out on the back porch and read for THREE STRAIGHT HOURS (from about 2 to 5) and nobody bothered me! I sat out there, on this beautiful back porch that overlooked a backyard of just grass, trees and birdhouses/bird feeders and a small pond with a family of three or four geese and two goslings, the wind brushing by me every-so-often, and just read. It was fantastic.
I slept in an actual bed that night and I HATED it. The room was even colder than Mammoth Cave (I think the largest cave in the world) where we went the next day. COLDER than a cave. If you've ever been down in one, you'll know what I mean. I was afraid to simply pull back my covers to go to the bathroom that night! It also didn't help that Hillary and my cousins were all playing poker in the living room. Because the house is made of mainly wood with no carpeting on the floors and few pieces of furniture, it echoed all the way down to the room I was in. IT WAS HELL.
The next day, Saturday, we went to Mammoth Cave and I wish it had lasted longer and that we had gone further back, but for $5 it was still really interesting. I'm hoping that next time I go to Kentucky, I can take a self-tour with my cousins (and maybe Dog-Boy is he comes with us.) We were there from about 2:30 to 6:30. It took us about an hour and fifteen minutes to get down there and back, but it was still worth it. It really was amazing. I also had a nice conversation with one of my cousins who went from Christianity to Buddism and why he did it. I completely respect him for it as we are all Christian in my family, he being the only one who different religion entirely. I loved hearing what he had to say and I'm so glad that he found a religion that fit him. I'm just so happy for him that he found a place to belong.
I'm just very thankful that my grandmother waited until we got back from the cave to leave us. It was after dinner, about 8:30 or so that I went down to the basement (my aunt and uncle had refernished the entire basement just for her when she came to live with them) to relieve my mother so she could go eat. Every day, since Thursday, she had been down with her for about two to six hours reading the Bible to her and talking with her. They even sang songs from the Luthern song book and Christmas carols to her! Anyway, I was down there for about half an hour when she started coughing. I was not alone down there. I was with two of my uncles who I noticed at one point were whispering and I wondered if they were thinking that I shouldn't be down there to see her like this. If they had asked me, however, if I wanted to leave the room, I would of told them very sternly, "No." I am the youngest grandchild in the family and I felt not just one of her sons and a son-in-law should be down there with her. I wanted to be there for her, no matter how painful it was.
We knew it was all coming to a close when she could no longer clear her own throat when she coughed. We all gathered around her, I stroking her forehead with my shaky right hand (I had been crying for about thirty-fourty minutes up to that point) and one of my cousins holding her hand on the other side of the bed. All the women were weeping and all the men were trying to keep themselves together. I would not have ashamed or unexpectant if they had not broken down there or in the their own privacy.
Grandma passed away that night after coughing for about an hour at roughly 9:30 or 10 surrounded by the ones she loved the most. As I said before, we are a Christian family, so we did all hold hands and recite the Lord's Prayer over her body a few minutes after she passed. I'm so just grateful I got to tell her hope much I loved her and tell her good-bye.
It was about 10:30 after all the tears had dried that one of my aunts decided to bake a pan of brownies for everyone. To say the least, it cheered everyone up at having this suddenly happen.
I slept on the leather sofa in the basement that night after watching two full hours of Animal Cops on Animal Planet. The sofa was horrible. I couldn't even turn over onto my stomach without having the blankets all fall off of me. I woke up in the middle of the night shivering because all of the sheets, except one, had fallen off of me. D:
The next day, we had a memorial for my Grandmother. It was only about an hour long, but it was beautiful.
Hillary, two cousins, one of my cousins girlfriend, and myself all went to a Flea Market about lunch where they were selling flying squirrels and I had the one that I was holding try to explore my chest. XD To say the least, I'm sure the people around me were very amused at me trying to holding the squirrel from going down my shirt. After that, an hour before dinner, my aunt and her husband (the ones who own the house in Kentucky) and another aunt and I all went exploring this one haunted house that belonged to a friend of their's. It does have a historical marker, so there is a reason this 300 year old house has not been torn down. We then went to the Sexton House (just see what you can find out about it. There's no real website to go to to learn about it's history) and took a couple pictures there. I'll show them to you guys when I have the chance.
I slept on a matress on the floor that night and, naturally, it was the best sleepy I had all four nights we stayed there.
We left Monday afternoon. We all wanted to leave at, like, 9 that morning, but my dad being my dad always finds a way to keep us there even longer than we need to be there. Of course! We left at about noon and didn't get home until 10. (By the way, Monday was my two year anniversary with Dog-Boy. I spent it in a car and he spent it as a horribly boring day! Fun!)
I tell you guys what I recieved that belonged to my grandmother, but this post is already so long. If you took the time to read this, thank you so much. I means a lot to me.
- Mood: contemplative
- Music:"Comptine d'un autre ete"-Amelie soundtrack
I have been to my first (and probably last) Dungeons and Dragons game! I didn't actually play, I was just watching, but I must say...it was pretty...interesting. It was Dog-Boy's campaign, so the most random of things happened. Things like "Oh my God, that's an Elder Dragon's Soul!", "And it's a room full of Necromancers!" and "CAN I TOUCH IT?!?!" occured. Dog-Boy does a REALLY REALLY REALLY bad job when it comes to female voices by the way. Oh my God...you have no idea. He got an earful from me during the game about it. XD
I was able to follow the majority of the game, but then when it got into all the lingo of rolling the dice to find out your "will strength" and your "damage" points and how it all added up just confused me. Probably best that it did. Also, I had no idea what they were talking about when he would ask them what their level was in such-and-such category.
I also found it to be really annoying when all of these side conversations started occuring. Dog-Boy said he was really thankful to me when I managed to get everyone back into the game. Both he and my mom believe that they were trying to show off for the ONE CHICK in the entire room. (I don't know how having side conversations is a way of showing off...) The guys in the room said they weren't even sure I existed; pretty sure he was lying to them. *pouts*
By the way, I'm donating blood to the vampires Monday morning. Any suggestions on what I can/should eat to get my sugars up and running again? My mom might be willing to take me to McDonalds afterwards...CHICKEN NUGGEST FOR 2ND BREAKFAST!!!!!!! *Mel-mel says go for it, Beth's eye twitches*
- Mood:
silly - Music:Church music in my head!!!! *head explodes*
I'm going in for an interview today with People's Bank so keep your fingers crossed! I'm hopeful about this one...mainly because I think it'd be a great fit. We can only hope!
I'll let you know what happens when I get back. Wish me luck!!
EDIT: Okay! First interview of my life...it seemed to go pretty well, I think. Let's see here...first thing that happened was that they told me to work part-time there, it'd be about 2 or 3 to 6. Small problem! Handicapped sister to watch! It is illegal to leave her alone. My mom leaves for work at 3:30 and doesn't come home until 8:30 and my dad leaves around 6 and comes home at about 6 when he's working overtime. When he's not, he comes home at 4ish. This could be interesting to try and work around...
Next, they asked me what my strengths were. As always, it was fairly easy to do that. The same goes for my weaknesses. The very first weakness I mentioned was rude people. Anyone who has heard my rant about Tower knows how much I hated the rude customers that came in. (The "Hey Lady!" guy is the one almost everyone has heard.)
I can't quite remember the rest of the questions (I'm a little tired now that it's over), but that doesn't matter right now, right? I'm just glad I got it over with and now, we play the waiting game. Let's see if they contact me! Just hope for the best is all I can say.
I need a job.
- Mood: exhausted
Well shit.
It really screwed me up not realizing that Physical Therapy wasn't covered by Financial Aid and that put me back by, oh, A MONTH!!! Let's see...went in and found this out early July with Dog-Boy and on Monday I went in changed my degree to Undeclared (like my sister), which WOULD give me the financial aid I need, but guess what? I still have to fill out TWO LOANS to get into college! My family nor I can afford to have to pay off a loan. At the moment, I'm unemployed and I can't pay $650 by August 5th!
Shit. Shit, shit, shit, shit.
I applied to Blockbuster on Monday...cross your fingers for me! Free movie and I think game rentals for me!
In other news, somehow...I've now applied for Financial Aid from Dallas County Community College. WTF?! How the heck did that happen?!
I'd rant some more but my rants are usually a lot better in person. X__X" Much like everybody else, I'm a bit stressed out now if you can't tell.
*is dead*
- Mood: irritated
